Breakfast!

I feel like a kid at nap-time, waiting patiently for time to pass or for the house to wake up so I can make some noise. Both boys are fast asleep, taking advantage of the last few days this will be possible before classes start again on Monday. I'm hoping to get the kitchen organized today, consolidating dishes and pantry duplicates so we can get rid of the last of the boxes and settle back into having a working kitchen and living room. This involves all kinds of unpacking and moving of cans, dishes, pots and pans, so I'm holding off until some signs of life come out from down the hall.

While I wait, I'm enjoying my usual breakfast - this berry shake. It started off as a before bed snack of a bowl of cottage cheese, yogurt, and a banana. We then added berries to the mix, then it became breakfast. Next was the blending of it into a shake, then the additional ingredients slowly crept in as we began making it more often. This breakfast is now an everyday thing, save for the few days we have eggs or pancakes - will post those later. Its quick, easy, portable, high protein and super filling! Oh, and delicious too. Don't let the cottage cheese scare you - it gets blended and you really can't tell its in there - promise! A lot of the ingredients are optional, and there is plenty of room to play with the flavors.

I forgot the honey in this picture, and the leucine and superfood tubs off to the left aren't included in the recipe. Leucine is a branch-chain amino acid and works to knock the edge off muscle soreness while the superfood is a freeze-dried fruit and vegetable powder chock full of antioxidants.

Berry Shake

1/4c kefir (optional, but really good for you)
1/3c cottage cheese
1/4c vanilla yogurt
1 egg (optional if you're squeamish)
2tbsp coconut milk
1tbsp ground flax
1/3c frozen berries
1 banana
honey to taste

Place all ingredients in a blender and blend until smooth. You can also do this with a stick or imersion blender. Makes one serving.

pocket change

Listening to: 'Youngblood' - Russian Circles

Well, I haven't forgotten this little nook. I just got trapped in a little bit of my own procrastination and a whole pile of moving and packing. Big changes are happening around here which has had everyone living in a little bit of limbo for the past week or so. Dishing it out in summary now, I'm not yet sure what I want to say about all this, but feel I owe this blog a post.

The Boy is moving in here, well, has moved in. We packed and moved all his worldly possessions last night/today. He's across the hall now, unpacking and settling into his new room. I can hear sighs and 'ughs', the result of one day too many of boxes and packing tape. We've been together three and a half years now, and this living together will be a first.

Nathan, our third roommate hails from Calgary, and seems to be fairly indifferent about most things. He's older, 27, closer to Boy's age which will be nice for them both. He seems to be an alright guy, so it'll be interesting to see how things play out.

We're starting an at-home personal training business - Prime Personal Training - for the summer and hopefully continuing through the year. The idea being to offer some ass-kicking personal training and body composition transformation packages at decent prices in a private location. Some nutritional guiding may be part of the deal with clients as well, since the two go hand in hand, and its hard to do one without the other.

We got our equipment for training yesterday - a power rack, 375lbs in plates, an oly-bar and some floor mats. This will compliment the bench, standard bar, 200-ish lbs in standard plates, and dumbbells we already had. Its all piled in the corner of what was the living room, waiting to be assembled and organized, after we move the current living room to the former dining room (now in the kitchen). It all feels a bit surreal still, its strange how thoughts and ponderings from years ago are starting to actualize without any deliberate connection. We're still up for the summer company grant, which we'll hopefully get - $3k would really help offset equipment and start up costs for Prime. That will all likely be assembled tomorrow and Friday, then the moving and chaos will be mostly over. I'll have to post pictures of the new layout once all is said and done.

I think thats about all for now. Classes start Monday, and I promise my breakfast shake recipe tomorrow. Its tasty, healthy, and stupid easy.

Now listening to: 'Consider This' - Anna Nalick

Spoiled, gifted, or just lucky?

Promise of a breakfast shake recipe tomorrow. Its worth the wait!

Got to talking, again, about my generation and those below it and the growing sense of entitlement and materialism that's running rampant. Brought up on a steady diet of reality TV and high speed internet, the line drawn between reality and mass produced fantasy is virtually gone for a lot of these kids. They grow up with the notion that at 16, they should be gifted with the best car on the lot, have the newest cell phone hooked to their belts, and be dressed in nothing but the best. Working a part time job is what they do to get Mom and Dad off their backs, for money to spend on partying and the newest toys.

Growing up, I lived with my stepsister and stepbrother, who were subject to different rules and upbringing than my sisters and I. The disparities at home only got more noticeable as we got older. Their tuition was covered; car was bought and paid for - gas included, they got their own apartments, money for groceries, clothes, and fun. Working optional.

I worked my way through high school, putting in 50+hrs/week my last year to save up for university. I took out loans and applied for scholarships to cover my expenses and make it work. I've worked on and off through school to keep up with rising rent, tuition and book costs. I had a car that I paid for, and sold it after a year because it was too expensive.

I am thankful for this, as much as it sounds like I'm complaining. I've held jobs, been through the interviews, done the work. I understand the value of money, budgeting, saving, and planning. I've worked hard to get this far, and I'm proud of it. I feel bad for those who don't have these experiences when they get thrown into the real world of bills, crappy jobs, and even crappier wages.

Flip the coin.

My older sister struggled her whole life to get passing grades. She studied for weeks for tests and exams. Did her practice problems, read her notes, you name it. She worked hard. And got decent grades.

I did not. I did my homework, yes. But it was not hard. I read over my notes once, maybe twice before tests. I got straight A's right up until my last year of high school (a story for another day). High school was a breeze. I did my homework and that of my friends, and still had time to work out, babysit, and have a good time. I didn't even have to try.

Coming to University was my 'real world' wake-up call. I never learned to study. Never had to. So come time for midterms, assignments and exams, I was completely unprepared. I am jealous of those kids that worked hard through school to get their grades, because this is just more of the same. They already know how to do it. I am completely lost. Much like one of those spoiled kids trying to figure out why life suddenly costs so much.

Some things still come easy to me, much like some things coming easily to those spoiled kids I mentioned. But for the most part, its been a cold-water wake up call three hours before I requested it. Unpleasant. But I think maybe, just maybe, its life's way of evening things out.

--end rant--

Perfection

Waiting outside the student loan office a few weeks ago I picked up a flyer for one of our on-campus counseling services. The topic was being a perfectionist. It went on to describe perfectionists as getting so caught up in doing it perfectly, that they never get started. Stressing over every last detail and forgetting the original purpose. This struck a chord.

I am completely guilty of procrastinating and postponing projects so I can get them done "just right". I want my papers to be thoroughly researched, expertly and eloquently written, and thought provoking. I want my projects to be the absolute best and most original. I want my blogs to be captivating. My pictures to be works of art. My training to be spot on, and my diet to be on track every meal, every day.

My hair will never behave or be straight enough. My thighs will always be too pudgy. I will forever be too tall or too short. I don't lift heavy enough. I'm not funny, smart, social or adventurous enough. I don't floss. My clothes don't fit right.


Truth: Much like this cup of coffee (and picture), I am far from perfect.

But this is me. I'm a chaotic work in progress. Its going to be one hell of a piece once I'm done, but for now, I need to accept my disaster.

My papers will likely always feel under-researched, I will always have body image issues, and my hair will not cooperate. I am still learning the ropes of a french press coffee maker, and have yet to determine the right grind, amount, and time. School is almost done, and frankly, I don't really care much about my grade anymore. I'm not even sure University was for me. At least not right now. So getting out is my main focus.

What all this has to do with training and cooking specifically, I'm not sure. It has more to do with life and self acceptance. An introduction to me. Acknowledging the good and the bad, and embracing it.

So this is me.

Welcome.

Beginnings

The Plan:
One new recipe each week
One new exercise or training tip each week
Master the world of blogging and HTML

Where I'm at:
In between programs, new one starts on Monday! I'm pumped. Its mostly hypertrophy with some killer lower body days. Have to keep the diet on track, nix the snacking and focus on meals. I'll post some lifting stats either in the middle of this one, or at the end. I'm still only a month or so back into regular training, so nothing is real solid yet.

Studying for exams - one on Monday and one on Friday. Then its another semester over, two more to go. Then... who knows.

Finding roommates - ah what a challenge this seems to be proving itself to be. Should be an interesting summer, more on this later.

The next recipe posted will likely be for a risotto - it'll be my first time making one. Here's hoping we don't botch it : )

More posts to come. Its back to the books for now.