Reflections

Its been nearly a month since I completed my 30 days of yoga. The challenges presented to us each day were difficult to appreciate in their entirety at the time since every day brought on something new to learn or try. After a week or so it began to feel like information overload and the biggest challenge then became simply keeping up with each day. There are several challenges I never got through and many that were left incomplete. I did, however, still work my way through 30 (consecutive) days of blogging and missions which in itself was my biggest goal.

In the last month, I have found myself coming back to some of those reminders and tasks, taking a little more time to appreciate their value and to apply them to my day. It hasn't been deliberate contemplation, more like a mere passing thought, yet every time it happens I can't help but smile. Maybe I did learn a few things after all. I don't believe Deborah - the pioneer of this movement - intended for us to take all thirty challenges and immediately adopt each change. I am sure she knew it would take a while for some of these to sink in and marinate a little before reappearing days, weeks or months later with a little zen reminder.

On that note, however, I don't think I will be doing any more daily challenges for a while. I'm still recovering from the last set, so lets just say I want to give it all time to sink in.

Moving on... I had my last first day of class this week (for now as my Dad likes to remind me - more on this another time). It was a bittersweet feeling, knowing that I would soon have to join the real world and stop counting my time in semesters. To cheer myself up, I bought a cute-as-a-button agenda and some new pens. Everyone knows new school supplies make the world a better place. I'll post pictures when I get home - the agenda is my 'Honesty Book'. In it I'm keeping track of how I spend (and waste) my time, a food log, and even some thoughts. Its a very busy little book. Did I mention cute?

Coming soon:
Pizza recipe
More on PRIME
Training tips
Olly updates

I'll leave with this borrowed question: When you think of taking time for yourself, what is it you would most like to do with that time? If this isn't theoretical and you're one of the few who does take time for yourself - how do you spend it?

catching up and checking in

If you don't like how things are, change it! You are not a tree! -Jim Rohn

A collection of thoughts I don't really have the attention span or mental capacity to expand much beyond what is here.

I owe a BVI post or two.

I don't want to be called "child like" ever again. But does that mean I change who I am to avoid it, or should I ignore it and keep being me? Where does that line get drawn between being myself and being childish. Maybe I should find out what makes me "child like".

I should eat better.

I am banishing "should" from my vocabulary - I either will or will not - there is no should.

I WILL eat better.

I WILL train hard.

I love my cat. His insatiable need for love when I come home from work melts my heart every time.

I have to learn to trust and let go.

I want to do something for myself this semester, I'm just not sure what yet. I hope it doesn't cost much. My graduation present to myself will be paying off my loans in one shot (I hope!)

I'm a tough cookie. I'm only a wimp when I'm allowed to be.

I've been in a fog. Not sure if I need more sleep to clear it, or less sleep and more coffee to reach that state of autopilot I lived in for so long. It brings a strange sort of clarity.

I've never been happier or felt more myself than when I lived virtually alone, didn't eat, didn't really sleep, worked out every day, spoke my mind, and kicked ass in school. I know I wasn't healthy, but I did feel happy.

I am going to make some friends. People can't all be that scary.

For the record - the water really is *that* blue, just like in the pictures. Check it out:

Truth: the picture hardly does it justice. And yes, that is a phone booth on the end of the dock.